Down $600k in crypto gambling, crypto 27 yo

I’ve been in crypto since 2014, had a good portfolio and I had a good longterm strategy back then. 3 years ago i started buying a little bit more of memecoins and I made some insane money pretty fast, that’s where everything started to get absolutely fucked for me. I started using pump.fun literally every day, watching charts, telegram, pumpfun maybe 10 hours if not more every single day for months. When i had put all my own money i had built up for years and lost, i started trading for others and taking loan and my debts ofcourse just started piling up. It’s like my whole personality changed, I take risks but this was just on another level. This shit is so embarrassing and no one knows about this because i just can’t talk about it to my family or friends. I usually am able to stop for 1 month or so, then when things feel like they are getting better i end up trying to buy a high risk crypto currency just so i can make money faster to pay off all my debts. It never works but I still keep doing it. Long story short, I lost my job, apartment, car and all my savings are gone and I owe around $200k all in all. Has anyone experienced this and has overcome it, if so how did you do it and how do you stay away for good🙏🏻